Hey everyone I haven't written in here in forever and since I was getting complaints from a certain someone by the name of CAITLIN I thought I should write a big long one. Alright I'll give you some highlights form my past couple of months.                            

  Christmas 2005, we opened our presents at about 2 in the morning because thats when everyone could be home. I received some wonderful gifts we probably got done opening at about 3:30 or something then everyone stayed up until about 4 or 5. At about that time I started feeling horrible so I went to bed I woke up after 6 and threw up since Melissa's bed was closer to the bathroom and Katie had gone with Madeline to sleep with Mom. Mom had me lay in there so I wouldn't have to go so far. I then woke up later probably around 11 threw up again sat at the went back to bed then about 1 I went into the bathroom and threw up again Katie was the one that came in and held my hair back that time then I went and laid down in Mom's room. At 1:30 everyone was gone to Grandma's  or they're significant others' houses.  So Mom came up and ironed her uniform  because she had to work 2nd shift that day she told me to coem downstairs and lay on the couch she went in the kitchen and had something to eat, she had to close the livingroom door because I couldn't stand the smell. She was just walking out the door when Dad was coming in from work so Dad stayed and kept me company he watched the rest of My Girl and My Girl 2 after that I let him watch War of The Worlds half way through that about everyone was home and I wasn't throwing up anymore. So that was christmas.

   Alright, New Years Eve bringing in 2006, I went with my youth group to wooster High school where they have two huge swimming pools and a monstrous gym so we played games and swam then we brought in the new year with a whole bunch of fun games that involved everyone. We then had a message by somebody but I don't remember his name it was a neat message though. After that we left the school and went to ice skating where we ice skated then we played broom ball it (it would've been more fun on a pond or something). Then we left there and went and played laser tag at acres of fun after that we played on the play area where the little kids usually play then we got in our vans adn came back to church it was about 8:20 something by the time we got back my Dad came and picked me up and I slept until 2 but then I had to get up because we had a huge family dinner with extra people added so Sandra came and woke me up and I threw some clothes on put my hair back and came downstairs. And that was new years basically.

  In January I went to Katie's alot oh and I babysat almost everyday for about 12 hours of the day for one fo my Mom's friends
it was a pretty busy month and I was starting my relationship with Dan which sadly ended that month as well it just wasn't right I knew my relationship wasn't going to last with him so we had to break up. We still talk sometimes on the phone I don't get to see him alot though.

  Alright February went to Katie's, babysat, and did whatever I guess.
 
  March let's see actually talked to Dan we're friends now I think, no I hope he likes this one girl who keeps on coming up in conversation and he's hopefully will start going to youth group with her at the church she's been inviting him to it woud be really good for him because he doesn't really know anything about God or church adn I try to help him I'm glad someone else is coming into the picture to help too. I went to Katie's again this month haha Sandra moved back home because her and Tyler are getting married September 16th and for a little bit they are going to live around this area for a while because he has a pretty good job at the moment.  
  At the beginning of this month I realized I liked this boy from my church and go figure he's the senior Pastor's son! But Its cool because his Dad is awesome and his Mom already likes me alot. Well a tthe beginning I really didn't want to tell anyone because I was like I don't want any rumours going around so I just want to tell a couple of people so I only told Lydia, Caitlin, Sandra and Victoria (sisters) and then my Mom because she always has pretty good advice when it comes to this kind of stuff.  So at first I was trying to find out if he had any interest in me at all and it seemed pretty pointless so I was trying to figure out a way to get through the barrier of segregation we seem to have at church so I could actually hang out with him. Well anyway yesterday since I had to go an hour early for jazz since victoria is in the class before me my friend Amber went with me down to the library (because we give her a ride to jazz every week) and got on the computers I checked my e-mail and my myspace and so on and so on and then Amber goes Brandon's online (the boy I like) and I said really? I don't have his screen name so she gave it to me and I started talking to him and then my aim wasn't working so I had to get off and get back on and he goes your back? Then I said ya thanks for reasuring me that my aim was working no problem and blah blah blah and so on then I finally asked him if he wanted to come to my movie night which I'm having on the 31st its going to be fun. Anyway he asked the usual questions and then somehow it just popped out of him that he liked me and had for a long time that he was just to shy to say anything. And then I said wow hey your mom is going to be happy she already likes me haha and then he replyed ya she likes you alot then I had to go because of Jazz and he had to go eat his dinner. I go home that night and called Rebecca and she was liek guess who likes you and guess who I'm talking to...Brandon. I said yes I know I already talked to him today then she said WHAT?!?!?!?! I wanted to tell you! haha then I told her what happened and I was all excited and now I'm still excited haha.

   At church we started small groups its awesome I have some amazing girls in my group and its helping me alot we meet every sunday during sunday school in the morning. I love it so much because its really helping me grow and listening to their opinions on what we're talking about is so awesome because I haven't been able to be around girls my age alot these past couple of months. And we have a great small group leader Jodi she doesn't teach it but she keeps it going and gives us insight to different things that we might not have understood. I am really being encouraged going to this and its helping me learn to do all of this on my own as well. Its also so eye opening to hear that all of these girls are having similiar problems as me! that in itself helps alot because then i know I'm not alone in those things that I thought no one else had trouble with. Its so wonderful and I'm so thankful!

   Church has been getting alot better for me before it was really hard because I didn't feel loved or welcome and basically thought no one cared when I came. And now its just so much better I mean its not perfect and it never will be but I'm glad things are getting better because I was really struggling with wanting to come to youth group or not. its not the church itself it was the youth group but now that its gotten a bit good I believe the only way we can go is better right?

  Well please just pray for me so I can keep on going even if it goes through another bad spot again. I hope all of you are having a great start to your spring I've been keeping up with your xangas and I hope everything is working out for all of you who had something wrong and I'm glad things are working out for those who don't have something wrong. I'll update alot sooner next time!

                                  Catch you later